*Bounce!*

Phew! Had a marathon telephone conversation last night when I came in from work, and I'm feeling very settled and happy. I think it's put a lot of tiny wee nigles I've had to bed, things that I didn't truly realise were bothering me even remotely.

Alex has ensured that I CAN have Friday night off, which is fantastic. This week is going to drag SO badly!

I've to establish whether or not Ian is connected with Robertsons, a new Cafe-Bar in town - it's somewhere I wish to take Richard when he's up visiting, but obviously that wouldn't be prudent if Ian IS involved with the place. There is no reason to cause friction when I can avoid it.

My parents are off to Stratford-On-Avon next Tuesday for a few days, so I'll have the house to myself which will be nice. I just wish they'd decided to go earlier than that, but the bank holiday weekend will be hellish to try and contend with. The campsite they're booked onto looks gorgeous. I hope they have a wonderful time!

Off to play....

Em x

Update

Well, Ian doesn't have anything to do with Robertsons as briefly thought, Martyn and Hazel will be in Carlisle hence able to meet up with Richard and I, I can't currently get through to Helen but will keep attempting to, and J5 will definately be out to join us!

In other news, I'm meeting up with my Gran tomorrow for lunch which I'm really looking forward to.

I have some sad news too, but that's going to get a seperate entry.

Em x

Sad

Ian's grandfather died of cancer a couple of weeks ago. I've only just found out today. He assured me that he was ok after a couple of days, and considered calling me but decided not to. Which I do understand - I just hope that he and his family have some good luck coming their way soon. They truly deserve it after the last couple of years.

It seems to be one endless uphill strugle for them all at the moment, and regardless of the past and the history between Ian and I, I hope he knows I'll always be there if he needs me. I can't stop loving and caring someone because things don't work out - it happens and its shitty, but ideally you can remain on friendly terms and hopefully still help each other through bad times.

Ian truly did help me through a very difficult time, and I hope he can say the same for me. At the end of the day, I don't think with our combined problems we'd have worked long term even if it hadn't been for alcohol - he's a really sweet caring giving person but we had to work SO hard at our relationship, constantly, because we were so different from each other.

Anyway, I'm rapidly moving off the subject here. Basically I feel a little of Ian and his family's pain, and I send them my sympathy. I'll be here for any and all of them if they want to get in touch. I love you guys - you were all part of my extended family, and I miss you.

Em x