Leave Me Alone

Please guys, this is hard enough without anyone talking to me about it. This is something that's going to take a lot of work between myself and sapphrine, and the last thing I want or need is any sympathy or concern. It distracts from what needs to be done and I don't want or need it.

I'm not sure who he's made his post open to, but it covers everything that needs to be said. If you can't see it, I'll sum up. We are on the verge of splitting up and it's currently on a knife edge. Yes, it is THAT serious.

Please respect both of us and give us our individual space and time to get this sorted out - the large part of which will be spent appart I think, so don't assume that if I'm alone that I'm lonely.

I'll ask for your view/opinion/help/concern if I feel I need or want it.

Thanks.

-Edit- Sorry if this sounds ungrateful, but it's what I truly need.

fuckity bollocks

Eucgh! My wonderful dreams.... it's just after seven, i finally went to sleep at about five, I still can't find my phone, I feel sick, there's no milk or loo role left, life is shit and I'm cold.

Aren't Sundays just wonderful.

-Edit- sorry - definately a case of first-thing-in-the-morning-grumps there. My phone has now been located thanks to my wonderful father. Toilet roll appeared with Ali. Milk - i'm off to get some soon and i'm drinking lots of coffee to stave the fatigue. And i no longer feel sick! Well, whatever else happens today i intend to sort out my room so there's an area of calm for me. I always need the comfort and privacy of my own physical space and it's far better if it's tidy and fresh, so I have cleaned my sheets (they smelled strongly of incense and aftershave which wasn't very restful last night) and will probably read for the majority of the day (i bought a tanith lee novel with fletch yesterday and wanna finish it) as it doesn't require much energy!

I'm thinking of heading into town tonight for a little while to catch up with Simon and Phil to see how last night panned out.... it was all going horribly pear shaped at one point so I hope it improved! It's not set in stone yet so if you've a "happy things em could do" suggestion, shout! I'll more than likely oblige - I don't want to sit around moping and intend to actually enjoy my free time.-/Edit-

grounding

i'm so lucky to have such a supportive family. i've just talked a few things through with them and they've chilled me out no end. most people would go to their friends first and build up an external network. i'm privledged enough not to HAVE to do that, i've a wonderful support network at home which i sometimes forget about, and sometimes take for granted.

On an unrelated note: ( i'm sick of allowing myself to wallow needlessly and pointlessly rather than facing the world )

it's stupid - and i'm not. i need to give it up, let go and move on. i'm a big girl and there is NO way anything that's happened before is going to dictate my future and how i deal with problems for a second more.

bugger!

note to all people who buy new pointy boots - be very careful on their first outing, especially on terraced house stairs. the bruise potential is rather high otherwise.

Today....

Well, all things considered, today has been great! However, sleep tonight is much needed so I'll be going to bed quite soon. I'm perfectly aware it's not even 9pm but given I want to be at work early tomorrow morning and had two hours sleep last night, I'M EXHAUSTED!

Apologies to krazykaren, unl0rd, whiterrabbit and cyber_cadet (whos nachos rocked) for my total lack of energy at the OVT today... I had a great time but was too zonked to look happy and be the social pup I wanted to be! This is something the wonderful sapphrine one was perfectly aware of, and he was gracious enough not to even slightly grumble about having a dead girlfriend once.

*Nathan - refrain from the "they struggle less when dead" type comments!*

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I'm going, I am! But first...

You're from the Planet of Sarcasm! You like to be
rude to people, sometimes in order just to see
their reaction, but mostly because you can't
believe that other people pull off the stuff
that they do.


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